Wednesday, July 15, 2009

7 1/2 month old schedule

Mine:

7am - bottle (150-200mL)
8pm - breakfast (cereal + fruit) and water
9am - nap
11:30 - lunch (vegetables) and bottle (100-150mL)
1pm - nap
3pm - bottle (150-200mL)
4pm - possible nap if previous naps were short)
5pm - dinner (cereal + vegetables) and water
6:00 - bath
6:30pm - bottle (150-200mL)
7pm - sleep (hopefully till at least 6:30am)

What's yours?

A Looooooonnnnnnggggggg book

Anna Karenina is really dragging on. Amy already finished it. Why can I not be bothered to read it? I'm already past halfway.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Forgiveness by laughter

Can't stay mad with J when he makes me laugh. I wasn't going to let him but he knows exactly how to tickle my insides without saying a word.

Amy Amy

Amy cheered me up today. I've known her for 10 years. We've had our ups and downs but she's still the one I can be serious with, be silly, just be myself. She's one the few people I know I will be friends with for life.

Not perfect

Want to write stuff but can't. Paranoid about being discovered.

Angry, upset and disappointed with J. Didn't expect him to say things he said. Didn't expect him to do things he did. Very hurt. I shouldn't take those things to heart but where is his respect? I don't want to be one of those women who don't mind being put down. I deserve better treatment.

He's calling me again. I'm not picking up. Again.

I didn't make him his soup that I always make him. I was going to but thought why should I behave as if everything was fine when it's wasn't? Just gives him reason to continue to talk to me the way he does.

I'm deceiving myself into believing I have the perfect marriage. Does anyone? What should be the limit of bad stuff?

I remember J once said, "I don't want us to be a perfect couple. That's too much pressure". I'm not asking for perfect.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Not another Monday

Amy is coming over again tomorrow! Really looking forward to it. Staying home with a baby can get really lonely.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Expanding heart

Is it possible to love a baby that much?

I'm overfilled with love every time I think of Sophie. I wonder if my Mum loves me that much.