After the first 6 months

When will the night waking end???

How I feel

Mad mad mad! Oh so mad!

And angry.

Recipe for Good Sleep

Sex before bed.

Life Goes On

My grandpa died almost a year ago. My grandma talks about him all the time. She says once she starts crying she can't stop. Her heart drops every time she sees an elderly couple. 48 years together.

She says that what keeps her going is knowing that we need her.

I will never cope if J dies before me. I won't.

Why?

This blog = publicised anonymity.

Sigh

Sunday night.

J is not home.

Sophie is getting to sleep.

Maya - restless.

Darling

Darling, lake’s sky-blue eyes
And in them, grief inexplicable
They are like mirrors of the soul.
Darling, by what unknown force
I am chained to you, my beloved?
Who created you, tell me?

I burn with only one desire
Wishing to be loved by you.
Your tenderness will kindle
The cold of previous days
Without your love.
I will brush your lips with my lips
One breath for two
One wish for two
These hearts are made happy with these two rings.

Darling, what magical force
You use, darling?
I just melt from it.
Kissing me, whispering to me
How happy I am now
That I see light from my beloved’s eyes.