Selfish Wife

It's not nice to see your husband sick but I couldn't help enjoy having him home with me.

Maternity Leave - Day 2

Maybe I should've stayed at work for another week. I feel so fine, none of the nausea, weakness, tiredness, stomach pain and the uncomfort of the heavy belly I've been feeling for the last few weeks.

Maybe I'm just more relaxed at home and that's why don't feel these pains as much.

I even made a cake.

The "Break"

First day off work. I thought I could manage another week but my body was telling me to stop.

It's not even lunch time and I'm already bored. Most of my morning was spent doing laundry. I think I'll be going through the 'nesting syndrome' during the next few weeks. The only obstacle is keeping up my energy levels as I feel like taking a break every 15 minutes.

The dreaded MS

Week 6 - morning sickness has made its debut.

There I was thinking how I might be one of the lucky few to skip it altogether when making my lunch this morning out of leftover lemon chicken and asparagus made me feel like throwing up.

By lunchtime, I wasn't feeing much better and the only food that didn't make want to gag was hot chips. After eating the small pack, I can tell you I never want to see hot chips again. I never want to see any fried food again for that matter.

Got home and had some ice cream which seemed appealing enough to begin with. I doubt I will be eating it any time soon.

I tell myself I should eat something nutritious but everything that comes to mind makes me nauseous.

And it's way past morning for it to be called morning sickness.

Starting to feel pregnant

I felt my first symptom of back pain. It was mild at first but then started getting a bit stronger. I read that walking helps so J and I went on one. It really did help until evening when it came back. I did some special exercises that I looked up on the internet and that alleviated the pain.

I also have moments of mild cramping, similar to when I get my period. Fortunately they have been decreasing.

No nausea yet and I'd like to keep it that way.

Two pink lines

After last month's pregnancy disappointment, I convinced myself that this month was going to be the same. I didn't even get any symptoms to obsess about. Until this week when my period was due. One look at my nipples really gave it away. I have never seen them so huge or so pointy. A sharp twitch-like cramp on my left side of the stomach was also a little suspicious.

A pregnancy test this morning confirmed everything. I didn't even expect for the two pink lines to appear so quickly.

J and I couldn't be happier. Fingers crossed everything goes well.

“Love me when I deserve it least, because that's when I need it most.”

Weekends of the Newlyweds

This is the conversation I have most Monday mornings.

Work colleague: How was you weekend?
me: it was great!
Work colleague: What did you get up to?
me: nothing much... just some housework...

When I was a teenager, I would never dream of saying something like that for fear of sounding like a nerdy loser. Now I don't care because I know what I really did on the weekend.

Wet Wet Wet

The logistics of sex in the shower are a bit mind-boggling.

Trying to Conceive

I'm not pregnant. The disappointment is undescribable.

No more October baby. I would prefer not to have a baby so close to Christmas but we'll keep trying.

I want to have my frist child before I'm 25.

Neighbourly Comfort

I felt a tinge of excitement when I heard our neighbours argue today. I took a little bit longer hanging up our washing so I could listen, to make sure I haven't imagined it.

They always sound so upbeat through our walls that I get quite embarrassed wondering what they must be thinking when J and I get into a screaming match.

It gives me comfort knowing that other people in healthy relationships get on each other's nerves too.

Female Instinct?

I think I'm pregnant.

Squeaky Clean

J is washing the dishes.

"Babe, this detergent is so good! So much better than the cheap stuff."

"I know! You only have to use a bit and all the grease is gone. We are never buying the cheap one again. It's a waste of money."

"Wait, what are we talking about! Before we used to talk about going out, doing stuff. Now we're getting excited about detergent!"

"I know... we've become too domesticated... but that stuff is just so great!"

"Yeah, washing up is so easy now!"

Friends After Marriage

All the married women in my family told me that once you get married, your female friendships don't mean what they used to.

I denied it but now I know they were right. How can I be close to my girl friends when I can't share all the intimate details of my life anymore? Nor do I want to.

J is my best friend now and I tell everything to him and I have no desire to share the personal parts of our lives with my friends. It just wouldn't be fair to him and it would diminish the deep intimacy that we share.